Todays Song

"White Horse"
Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

[Chorus:]
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

[Chorus:]
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale,
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now

*This song fit me last year. But this year I'm so thankful for the love I have now.

Something I needed to remind myself......

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.'' E.R. 


Someone may try to suggest to you that you ought to feel inferior. When you feel put down by someone around you, it is one of the worst feelings. Yet, it is also a time for realizing that only you have the power to stop this feeling or to allow it to get to you. In reality you control your own feelings and will only feel inferior if you agree with them (if you consent to feel inferior). No one can ruin your self-esteem, unless you believe the negative things they say. Deal with it constructively rather than making it into a case of feeling victimized and self-defeatist. Learn from the experience, improve aspects of yourself that bother you, and highlight your talents and good points. After all, quite possibly, the barbs were but jealousy of all the good and cleverness which you already shine forth. It has taken me a while to learn this, and I still practice looking at myself better than others do to this day. Just because one person doesn't like me or I am not their equal economically and socially doesn't mean the entire human race hates me. I am not inferior; I am just as human as they are.

Bad day....

Dream of you...

Invisible.....

Invisible Lyrics
I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair, and color my skin
I tried everything, to make them see me
But all they see, is someone that's not me


Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible


Here inside, my quiet heart
You cannot hear, my cries for help
I tried everything, to make them see me
But every one, sees what I can't be



Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible


Sometimes when I'm alone
I pretend that I'm a queen
It's almost believable


Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

''The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams''.

Our Song.....

Endlessly She is my rock and my rolling thunder,
I've been the spell she was under,
I, I love that girl,
She is my cigarettes and champagne,
She's got me strong but I'm not running,
I, I love that girl,
I, I love that girl

She is the days I can't get over,
She is the nights that I call home,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait,
caught in the waves of hesitation,
Lost in the sea of my own doubt,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait,
For you I'll always wait

She is the flames in the fire, she's raging,
I've been the spark in the war she's waging,
I, I love that girl,
She came along and she spoke so sweetly,
Changed everything, took my heart completely,
I, I love that girl
I, I love that girl

She is the days I can't get over,
She is the nights that I call home,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait,
caught in the waves of hesitation,
Lost in the sea of my own doubt,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait

In city bars and empty cars,
It's 3am, I wonder where you are,
And the crooked smiles,
and the worn out miles between us,
and I wonder where you are

She is the days I can't get over,
She is the nights that I call home,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait,
caught in the waves of hesitation,
Lost in the sea of my own doubt,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait
For you I'll always wait
For you I'll always wait